When I started to write, do my home work I was given in therapy. There was a moment I remember as clear as day when I took a deep breath and decided that I was going to write with honesty, I was not going to hold anything back, I was going to own up to my emotions and my thoughts my feelings, I was going to write about them.
I was sitting in my therapist’s office and she handed me a paper with spaces to write in. It was a form a hand out I had to fill out.. It had headings which told me what to write and were to write it. It felt so sterile, in personal and very clinical but it was a start, there always has to be a start.
I looked up at her and I said "On this paper I can write out what I feel and not hold back”. She smiled and said “yes Darcy” I looked down at the paper and said “What if I do it wrong? What if I mess this up like I messed everything else up in my life”. She told me “There is no right or wrong these are your thoughts and emotions just write freely”
I started to tear up and said “I can just write about how I feel and not be afraid” she said “yes”.
Well I started to write and I transformed that sterile form into my own way of writing thought records, I turned writing into a daily routine it became my best friend. I developed my own ways of applying the tools I was given in therapy and I wrote everyday.
The Day I sat down behind my computer and I wrote the intro to “Why I Run” I wrote with as much honesty and truth as I could because I knew that was the only way I could actually free myself and reach others and it worked! Here it is
“ I have gone 38 years living and only thinking about what people think of me. I don't want anyone to think or know I’m crazy.
I’m embarrassed because I’m crazy. I feel that I’m a burden on my friends if I talk to them and tell them how I feel.”
That was the start of “Why I Run” and from that point on I wrote with honesty and love for my feelings. Now every time I see a blank page in front of me I smile because I know I can fill that page with my thoughts, my emotions and it feels so good to do so.
When you write you are given a wonderful place a place where there are no limits, no boundaries to what you can write and feel. The simple act of putting words on paper or on your screen can free you and teach you so many things.
I wrote “Creative Writing For The Mind, Body & Soul” with the goal of helping as many people as I can, giving them tools that they can use in there own ways. There are no rights or wrongs, just you and your thoughts, dreams and even your fancies. We are all entitled to happiness each and everyone of us. Turn writing into you best friend and free yourself! Learn to write with honesty and love for your emotions, your thoughts, your feelings own them and love them. Set yourself free!
“Only with open conversation can we break the stigma behind depression, Lets start talking and do it together.